i’m totes an ~*~enigma~*~ on here ust kidding
ayo just say “hi i found your tumblr” and it’s okay HAHA
not even going to lie it bothers me so much how some teachers are so rigidly focused on formatting of an essay - as in the entire grade is focused on whether or not i know how to properly use mla format, as in i could write an absolutely garbage paper on how the protagonist of my book must o b v i o u s l y be an optimist that “”“”“”“”“sees silver linings”“”“”“”“”“”“”” based on the the research of some “”“”“”“”“”“freudian psychoanalysts”“”“”“”“”“”“”’. like, introduce me to new ways of approaching an essay prompt/topic. different methods of organizing my ideas. help me make my audience *feel* something in my writing. let’s have more philosophical/ moral discussions. teach me how to communicate effectively through multiple styles [NOT: formats] of writing. none of the cliches condensed into a couple paragraphs of text, what is this even teaching me?
"i wouldn’t be doing any of this if you had straight a’s"
random things but
samplers are a type of instrument? hitrecord.org! professional hobos; art + science = wonder; THE FUNCTION AND THE ASYMPTOTE: A TRAGIC LOVE AFFAIR [random headliner that popped into my head whynot]; why can’t i listen to music if it helps me focus on my homework w h y; i think pity and sympathy are the same thing but not really? constantly thinking about something because every…single…thing…reminds you of it u__u; i have a to-do list separated into 1. school ish 2. rly important ish 3. i w-ish; severely behind on everything, this is how i procrastinate..,.,
i haven’t done a running log in a while -
5//4//5//4//5 miles; definitely feeling stronger with uphills & since the people left for soccer/softball/etc the team is little smaller but we’re running in a pack and getting closer which is really cool! eventually i can see us reaching a point where we’re all ~in synch~ with our paces and just ah good things up aheaad 8] this week i’ve just felt really fatigued during runs but also i’m not eating sleeping drinking as much as i should be u_u also i need to work out with the sprinters ahh can i just indulge in my hopes of being part distance runner AND part sprinter? u__u
i am so so so so tired but so is everyone else yikes; tomorrow’s friday, so here’s to trying things as opposed to giving up completely, learning the art of properly layering, awkward and not so awkward interactions with people you used to know in unexpected places, tutoring lil’ children (!!!), pulling all nighters (just kidding that’s nothing to celebrate), listening to my sister’s music and feeling waaaay nostalgic, perpetually chilly hands and feet, sincerely baked chocolate chip cookies from prepackaged dough (as sincere as it’s possible), sweaty anguish war faces aka GOT MY PICTURES FROM CROSS COUNTRY HAHAHA, forever learning lessons in humility and just overall introspection on daily runs, and decorating my very first christmas tree - breathe breathe breathe breathe, christmas break is in nearly two weeks and eventually things gon’ be aight
sometimes i get this feeling that history is repeating and i’m about to feel really terrible and it’s all too familiar i can’t do anything but breathe and wait it out. currently the thing that hurts the most is confiding in people your far off dreams, aspirations and whatnot, and just having them flung around like they’re nothing, especially when used against you with intention to hurt,
as if because the person doesn’t understand how important and vulnerable they are to you. i’m just really bummed out right now, when i think of bums i think of sweatpants and the beach?