today was really rough but i’m going dress shawpin’ and bastille is on blast, i got just as many, if not more, reasons to be happy rather than sad! gotta pick yerself upppppppp
real talk: how am i going to get to new york?
currently reevaluating social media ((always reevaluating, specifically what i post where)) because how much is too much hmmMM
hate to get mushygushy on y’all but i really hate it when people head in relationships with this intricately pre-defined idea of friendship/love/etc —- i gobble up cute hallmark movies as much as the next person, but its like, people have their own ways of showing they care and asdfghjkl; don’t miss out on potentially wonderful friendships & more because of the unknown/unexpected
"college readiness test" lmao
currently fueled by: hella caffeine & excitement that I HAVE FULFILLED SAT WISHES OF MY PARENTS & felt scarily robotically focused concentrated similar to that runner’s high type of focus during cross country it was wonderful i feel like i could take the sat like 6 more times ((i kind want to because i want that 2300, for myself…aha…)) & feeling so pumped for the psat because it is essay-less and shorter! WEIGHT LIFTED OFF OF SHOULDER LYFE IS GOOD
6 miles, hilarity in the kitchen, sweat, garage chillin’ incessant sat vocab recitation, right triangle room, a super friendly dog, lamplights, scooter, skateboard
*no longer nervous, come at me college board*
humans are so cute, when we say goodbye we put our arms around each other and to show we love someone we bring them flowers. we say hello by holding each other’s hand, and sometimes tiny little dewdrops form in our eyes. for pleasure we listen to arrangements of sounds, press our lips together, smoke dried leaves, get drunk off of old fruit. we’re all just little animals, falling in love and having breakfast beneath billions of stars.
when you deconstruct it like that, aw swoon
when things get tough, i look at the tumblr entries of people during their junior years (i mean, they’re all well into college now, but nonetheless) and calm myself down because i am obviously not the only one trying to conquer a tough courseload / other commitments; these people remind me that things do get better & i will end up where i need to be!!